Home Thoughts of a ‘Pantser’ Stuck in an Office Chair…

I  admit I thought long and hard before committing myself to writing another ‘as you go’ novel on this blog.  I have serialized novels previously and I think they have been well received – I even believe the current serial, ‘Satan’s Rock’ has an heroic following who I hope will not be disappointed with the ending, which is at last in sight.

Yes, at last!

The thing is, I write entirely for my own pleasure.  It is a ruthless self-indulgence.  Oh, I had a go at selling a few books when the wondrous fields of Kindle opened up to me, back in two-thousand-and-frozen-to-death, but my heart was never really in the publishing side.   I never considered authorship as a commercial venture.

Turning three thousand words a week wasn’t in the least onerous to me, back then.  I enjoyed the challenges that represented, the research, the editing, the constant plot revisions that writing on the hoof present.   

Now, I find it harder.

The Covid interlude and the old ‘advancing years’ thing have conspired together to urge me to move on, to sketch together short pieces like this and publish them, rather than commit a whole week’s writing to one piece of fiction.  I have to recognize physical limitations both on my readers’ part (it takes time to read 3000 words) and my own, which might serve as a warning to anyone considering continuing a writing career into old age.   Look into the history of any writer on record as still writing in their dotage and you will discover tales of loneliness, physical pain and the mortification of watching as horizons grow ever closer.

Not that I regard myself in such a tragic light; heavens no!   At 75 I am a warm, pulsating male dynamo with the heart of a lion and the strength of an ox – although I do get a bit short of breath now and then.   No, you see, the truth is, I was never fast – never a quick writer – and now I’m getting slower.  There are so many things I see that need to be written about and I don’t have the time to write them.   I have a different view of the world to many, and I need to get it out there.

Who knows, maybe someday someone will listen?

I’m planning a new page for this blog,   ‘Fred Anderson;  The Complan Years’.  Watch out for it!

8 responses to “Home Thoughts of a ‘Pantser’ Stuck in an Office Chair…”

  1. It sounds like you and I are similar in many ways. I’m a bit younger than you, 68, and dear lord you’re a much, much better writer than I’ll ever be, but I was bitten by the writing bug as well. I’ve been working on “The World’s Worst Novel” now for some time. Writing only for myself is rather enjoyable. I don’t have to worry about making deadlines as I did when I was writing for computer magazines a long time ago and I don’t have to be concerned about keeping an audience happy.

    If you’re new adventure in writing comes about, I look forward to it and will read it as eagerly as your other writings.

    I should add this – Thank you for your blog. Every time I see one of your entries pop up, whether it is a short piece or your continuing series, it is a delight to read.

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    1. Thank you so much for the compliments concerning my writing, yet I find myself enjoying your posts hugely too, so I won’t accept your comparison! I really hope when you finish the ‘World’s Worst Novel’ you’ll put it out there. I’m sure it will be worth reading! I agree deadlines are onerous, ugly things, particularly at the moment. I like the quote from Douglas Adams, which was something to the effect that his favorite sound was that of ‘a deadline rushing by’.

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  2. Does it help that I understand exactly how you feel?

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    1. It helps a lot, David; thank you.


  3. I am a slow writer too, Frederick. I know I haven’t been following Satan’s Rock. Somehow, I missed the first quarter and then didn’t want to jump in not knowing what was happening. I’m also offline on weekends for the most part. It’s when I have to squeeze my writing time in (I look forward to the days of retirement when I can spend more hours at the keyboard).

    I’m looking forward to more pieces of fiction from you and any rambling thoughts you want to share. I don’t think I’ll ever stop writing, but I’m also fine if all it ever amounts to is what it is now, with a few sales here and there. I’d like to make a career of it, but at the end of the day, I’ll still write even if it’s just for my own pleasure. Like you, there are so many tales I want to tell and so many thoughts to share!

    BTW, Happy 2022!

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  4. Hello, Mae! Thank you for the tweets as always – I don’t often share my innermost insecurities in such an undignified manner, I think it must be the medication. I don’t blame you for not following ‘Satan’s Rock’; if I saw a title like that I’d give it a very wide berth. Again, I’ll blame the medication. And it is as big a demand on the reader as it is on the writer, so, yeah, – really… I hope you never lose your appetite or your inspiration: for all my whining writing is a great hobby.


  5. Fred, I love reading your thoughts, writing and books. This is your blog and your choice. I’ll happily read whatever you share, although I missed the beginning of Satan’s Rock and haven’t been able to catch up. I find I put myself under pressure and when I pause to ponder, the task is unnecessary. It’s lovely that you can ponder to us all, as it gifts us a chance to have a think too. Hugs and much love to you both and Honey, Fred, always. ❤ xXx

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    1. Thank you Jane. There’s not a lot I can add to that! Hugs as always

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